This time last month, I was taking the GRE in Portland. Then I was frantically getting ready for all of my closest friends and family to come hang out with me one last time before I left for this adventure. It is weird, I read other blog posts from PCTs taking about how Training goes super slow and super fast all at the same time, and now I completely understand what they meant. 1) I am utterly shocked that it is already Tuesday of week 4 of training, it feels like it was yesterday that I was getting on the plane to DC, but also 2) I am utterly shocked at how long it feels since I was in the US. Training stretched time in weird ways I could never have imagined. I think it also hasn’t hit me that I am living across the globe because we have been so busy and Ukraine is surprisingly not much different from Hillsboro or Eugene. (Or maybe I am just trying to compensate for being away, that is altogether a very probably explanation.)
My last few posts have been about the great things that I’ve been surrounded with since I’ve been here, so for this post I think I’ll share a few of my challenges. I’ll get these out now so I can talk about more positives later. (Disclaimer: I am not whining, I am simply stating these to let you know that I am a real person with real challenges, and also it will help me to see them written out.)
1) Simplifying my language
Being an English teacher to students who only have limited English skills is tough. Being an English teacher to students who only have limited English skills and you don’t know their levels (we are student teachers moving between different classes during training) is even tougher. Being an English teacher to students who only have limited English skills and you don’t know their levels AND you just spent the past five years of your life trying to gain a more mature vocabulary in order to write concise economic research papers is VERY TOUGH. I have found myself wanting to use words such as “quantify” and “qualify” to my students, and they are learning “because” and “that is why”.
2) Dead people
In Kozelets, I have seen two dead bodies already. When someone dies, they put their body in an open casket in the back of a extremely decorated truck and drive them to the church or cemetery. I have been here for a month and have seen two of them.
3) Not taking care of all the animals
Kozelets has stray animals. A lot of them. I really feel bad for them since I am used to assuming they are someone’s animal and will soon die if not brought back to their owner. I keep having to remind myself that most of them are stays/wild. It is just so hard when you have a stray puppy or kitten following you and you know that ignoring it almost guarantees its death in the winter. So it goes.
4) The schedule of PCT
I completely understand that we should be highly trained for when we move to site, and that 3 months is probably the maximum time that makes sense for training for a 2 year job, but there is still just so much to do. I like being busy, but sometimes I have flashbacks to when I was a music major. If any of you knew me then, you know exactly what I mean. Although I am excited to see how far I have grown as a teacher and a speaker of Ukrainian after training, the present is a little stressful.
Well, that is all for now. I go to Kiev with my cluster on Wednesday, so expect a blog post after that.
Also if anyone wants to hear about anything in particular in my posts, just comment on this post, or message me on Facebook and let me know!
-J